This morning I was reading an article by Joyce Meyer and in it she was saying that if we can’t see it in our minds – our dreams, our desires, our wishes, it’s probably not going to happen. We need to be able to see it, visualise it, pray to God about it and then leave it in His loving hands. So, I thought… what is it exactly that I dream about, pray to God about, and need to learn to trust Him for?
And isn’t that what they tell us in any self-help book – that you are not going to achieve anything until you can visualise it, and then internalize that you become what you see. If you can’t see, you can’t believe in it. If you can’t believe in it, you can’t see it actually happening in your life. If you can’t see it happening in your life, you can’t become it.
So, what is it that I want?
I want to be someone in charge of my emotions – I want to be able to eat with my husband at any meal time, any time of the day or night, and at any venue, without any anxiety or fear. I want to be slim, trim and healthy. I want to be fitter than I am now. I want to believe and know and trust that God will answer all my prayers.
I want both hubby and I to earn enough money to never have to buy anything on credit again, to buy all we need each month (including clothes and house maintenance), and to save for our retirement.
I want to love my husband all of my days and I can imagine us sitting on a porch, drinking wine, and watching the sunset in our old age. And still holding hands.
I want to Baby Girl and I to be close when she grows up one day – that I will be a confidante and mentor for her in a way that I never had with my mother.
I want to be able to bestow kindness on others and be able to financially afford to do so!
This is what I want – this is honestly ALL that I dream and think about. Today, my head is filled with negative thoughts about none of these things ever happening, or God not answering my prayers, or that I will battle anxiety forever, or that I will never eat out with my husband again without feeling anxious and fearful. Even just typing that, I can feel my heart beating faster, but God is a God of grace and love. I have to put aside those negative thoughts and focus on what God has promised me:
John 10:10: The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Romans 12:2: Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
2 Timothy 1:7: For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Isaiah 41:10: So do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.