My progress.

I started this blog to record Baby Girl’s life. I wanted to remember each and every day, each detail of her life – I have so few memories of my childhood that I wanted a platform for Baby Girl to recall memories of her own childhood. Especially since she is an only child, there won’t be any siblings to bounce memories off of.

But, this blog quickly became about me exercising my demons (so to speak). And in a way that’s okay – Baby Girl will truly know who I am. And very often, if fears or insecurities or anything is passed onto the next generation, understanding where these fears or insecurities come from is half the battle in walking beyond them.

And often I ask myself, “Why?”
Why have I gone through all? And this is how I tend to think of it: some people are born with strong personalities. From the get-go, they know what they want in life and what they’re going to do to get it. Others are born with softer personalities that need to be nurtured and taken care of – these are usually your more sensitive individuals and are more easily influenced by outside forces. And then you get those that are born blank slates – their personalities develop over time from their families, life experiences, etc. I was in this latter category. I was a blank slate – I was this insecure, sensitive little girl who, I think, from the word go had to develop my personality in life. I have no problem with that – I think we worship a God who is creative.

However, I was born into dysfunctional family with a dominant mother figure and an absent father figure. And this dominant mother figure controlled and bullied every aspect of my life. And this only loaned itself even more to me developing anxiety issues.

It has taken me a long, long time to realise that God did not create us to be anxious.

Day Eighteen: Weight Loss God’s Way


He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. 2 Samuel 22:35

Today’s training is devoted totally to the “get to” of strength training. Some of you celebrated and some of you thought, “Ughhh!” I hear you. To be honest, I‘m kind of with you “Ughhh”-ers. I would much rather get my lungs filled with lots of air in cardiovascular training than my muscles filled with the lactic acid burn that comes with strength training. BUT we need both for total heath.

Day Fourteen: Weight Loss God’s Way


“That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9

This verse has always excited me – it is filled with such promise and such hope, and such love from God to us, if only we would (could) trust the process, trust him. Guess that’s why my word for 2015 is trust.

We can’t trust what we see. We can’t trust what we hear. We can’t even trust our own thoughts. It’s not like God is playing a trick on us or something. In fact, it’s his way of helping us take a load off.

Day Eight: Weight Loss God’s Way

Day Eight: Weight Loss God’s Way

Workout Of The Day (WOD)

Building on our training time together yesterday, today we are going to TRAIN love. Training love doesn’t mean we flex our muscles for God. Training love means we open our hard, wounded, and calloused hearts to receive the love that God so lavishes on us.

“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!” 1 John 3:1

Day Seven: Weight Loss God’s Way

Day Seven: Weight Loss God’s Way

Before this getting “healthy and whole” train picks up too much steam, it is really important to me that I tell you…GOD LOVES YOU! GOOD NEWS!! GOD LOVES YOU! He really, really, really loves YOU!

Your whole life is about God’s great big love for you. If God’s children lived from the reality of how much they are loved by their Father in heaven, I am convinced we would never hunger or thirst for anything else. Everything we hunger and thirst for, besides God, is just a cheap substitute for God’s love. It’s a momentary lover that leaves us feeling cheap and used in the morning.