Do you know that today is Friday, 13th? Ha ha – always have to laugh at that, because invariably it turns out to be just like any other Friday… Sinister~:-)! Yesterday, I had the most awful experience at work: I saw a mom this morning completely lose it with her 18 month old son, just outside… Continue reading Gratitude – 13th November
We’re in a bind – our financial situation has never been strong, and it has been a constant battle to make ends meet and live a quality life. Unfortunately, you need money to do things in life… like feed your family, clothe them for school, etc. And we have been given some further bad news… Continue reading Gratitude – 10th November 2015
What an awesome weekend. Okay, so I didn’t get to do the Park Run on Saturday, because the weather was a bit foul, but I am nevertheless still grateful for an entirely amazing weekend: On Friday’s, we usually just get take-aways, and so we go to our favourite little fish and chip shop that makes… Continue reading Gratitude 26th October 2015
I started this blog to record Baby Girl’s life. I wanted to remember each and every day, each detail of her life – I have so few memories of my childhood that I wanted a platform for Baby Girl to recall memories of her own childhood. Especially since she is an only child, there won’t be any siblings to bounce memories off of.
But, this blog quickly became about me exercising my demons (so to speak). And in a way that’s okay – Baby Girl will truly know who I am. And very often, if fears or insecurities or anything is passed onto the next generation, understanding where these fears or insecurities come from is half the battle in walking beyond them.
And often I ask myself, “Why?”
Why have I gone through all? And this is how I tend to think of it: some people are born with strong personalities. From the get-go, they know what they want in life and what they’re going to do to get it. Others are born with softer personalities that need to be nurtured and taken care of – these are usually your more sensitive individuals and are more easily influenced by outside forces. And then you get those that are born blank slates – their personalities develop over time from their families, life experiences, etc. I was in this latter category. I was a blank slate – I was this insecure, sensitive little girl who, I think, from the word go had to develop my personality in life. I have no problem with that – I think we worship a God who is creative.
However, I was born into dysfunctional family with a dominant mother figure and an absent father figure. And this dominant mother figure controlled and bullied every aspect of my life. And this only loaned itself even more to me developing anxiety issues.
It has taken me a long, long time to realise that God did not create us to be anxious.
DAY 11: IT’S NOT FAIR!
Thought for the Day: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. . . . That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:9 – 10)
A huge piece of delicious looking cake was delivered to our table. It was my favorite . . . it was our anniversary . . . and it was free! But I was at the beginning of my healthy eating adventure, which excluded sugary confections. So I graciously offered it to my husband. But inside a different dialogue was playing in my mind, “It’s not fair!”
DAY TWENTY TWO:
WEIGHT LOSS GOD’S WAY
Day 22! I am so honored and excited that you have traveled this far! Please take a moment to reflect on all that God has shown you so far.
It’s so important we don’t become people looking for the next BIG thing for God to do because we fail to look back at all the small and consistent acts of mercy and grace he has done on our behalf. Day after day… He is good and He is faithful.
“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever.” Psalm 136:1
We really are silly people, aren’t we? We get easily flustered by our discomforts and we have a hard time giving up our wants in exchange for the freedom of not wanting. The very thing we want (the most) is the thing we can’t have because we are not willing to give up what we want (in the moment). Like a dog chasing its tail, round and round we go. And Satan loves it that way.
We continue to pray for freedom and deliverance from the things that seem to be robbing our peace. Meanwhile God stands right next to us and asks:
Will you just give it to me?
Do you trust me?
Is my love enough for you?
Day Three: Weight Loss God’s Way
I did it – I took the photo. It was embarrassing and I hope no-one ever sees it. But, it is a good reminder to see – sometimes we forget to actually look at ourselves. In our minds, it’s never as bad as what we think it is. But when we actually see with our own eyes, then we begin to realise – hmm, perhaps it is now time I do something about this. Today, Alisa asks if we’ve ever paid for a personal trainer – I have not. I have been too shy and too embarrassed to even consider asking someone to help me train (just another way I have hidden away from life). I’m too scared I can’t do what is asked or that (or perhaps and that…) I will make a fool of myself.