Ashamed to be South African!

I have no idea if you know about the troubles in South Africa with the #feesmustfall campaign.  Now, I have no issue with protests – if something is wrong, and the government isn’t taking a stand to correct the issue, then we need to make the government listen.  It’s not the protests in and of itself that has me concerned.

But, there are a number of issues that seriously DO concern me:

Firstly, the violence.  I get that people need to have their say, and I get that sometimes you need to have drastic action in order to get the government to listen.  I understand all that.  But, seriously, burning cars, throwing rocks at the police, torching buildings, destroying art, burning books?  And all in the name of a movement, that if granted, will drive this country quite literally to the brink.  Someone, somewhere, will have to pay for the fees (the latest is that all white people must cover the fees of poorer black students – how on earth do I do that when we’re not even surviving financially at the moment).   Nothing is ever truly for free: institutions of any kind cannot survive without a monetary inflow.  Yet, and yet, this was promised to all in the 1994 elections, which brings me to my second point…

Education.  No country in this world will ever move forward without education.  We need education as a country to survive – it is with education that we will have doctors, engineers, artisans, teachers.  Without having any of those vocations, we will not have a country.  Education would help us to see that a promise made by the ANC to grant free education for all is an impossible feat for a third world country.  In fact, going further back, as my parents and most parents of people my age don’t even have high school, had they been fully educated, they would know that what the white government was doing back then was wrong and apartheid would’ve fallen much, much sooner than it did.  But, they didn’t know and they weren’t educated enough to be able to tell that what the government was telling us wasn’t the truth.  For the most part, white South Africa just simply didn’t know – and you don’t know what you don’t know.

Which is why education is so, so vitally important!

You can’t destroy education!

The #feesmustfall and #sciencemustfall campaigns is quite literally a campaign to destroy education.  Education is seen as “elitist”, “white” and “western” and “western education is pathetic” – really???  How did we go from #rhodesmustfall to kicking all education out because someone doesn’t like Sir Isaac Newton’s theory on gravity and an apple falling from a tree?

The attack on education is extremely concerning to me.  I have a seven-year old daughter.  I live in a country that hates white people.  What future does this little seven-year old girl have if she lives in a country that despises education as much as what it does?  Where do we go to get her educated?  And if we succeed in her education, what chance is there of her finding work or being employed afterwards – #blackeconomicempowerment.

There is a video clip doing the rounds where a UCT student demands that science must fall – I can’t embed You Tube videos at work, but I quote:

A so-called “fallist” has asked students at the University of Cape Town’s science faculty to consider scrapping science as a whole if it is ever to be decolonised.  At a panel discussion this week‚ published to YouTube‚ the woman responded to a question about the decolonisation of science.  “Science as a whole is a product of western modernity and the whole thing should be scratched off. Especially in Africa‚” she says.  “I have a question for all the science people.  There is a place in KZN called Umhlab’uyalingana.  They believe that through the magic‚ you call it black magic‚ they call it witchcraft‚ you are able to send lightening to strike someone.  Can you explain that scientifically because it’s something that happens?”

The meeting then breaks into laughter at her question as someone in the audience yells: “It’s not true!”

After the meeting’s chair restores order‚ she continues: “Western knowledge is totalising.  It is saying that it was Newton and only Newton who knew and saw an apple falling and out of nowhere decided gravity existed and created an equation and that is it.  “Whether people knew Newton or not‚ or whatever happens in West Africa‚ Northern Africa‚ the thing is the only way to explain gravity is through Newton who sat under a tree and saw an apple fall.

“So western modernity is the problem that decolonisation directly deals with.  It’s to say that we are going to decolonise by having knowledge that is produced by us‚ that speaks to us and that is able to accommodate knowledge from our perspective.

“Decolonising the science would mean doing away with it entirely and starting all over again to deal with how we respond to the environment and how we understand it.”


The beauty of science and education is that it exists in a realm beyond race, colour, creed or gender.

Gravity exists as a natural law – gravity doesn’t care if you’re white, or black, American or South African, educated or uneducated.

What is even more worrying is that this stupid #ScienceMustFall is gaining momentum.

People cannot see beyond their hateful rhetoric, their own racism, to realise that they are actually destroying a very beautiful country.

Which brings me back to my point – what future does my lily-white seven-year daughter have in this country?  And what happens to us when we retire and our investments have no value to see us through our retirement age?

It scares me!

This morning I received a post update from Shaunti Feldhahn that made me cry (though for a very different reason than for Shaunti).  In the post, she speaks about her emotions as a video clip made by Canadians to support the Americans in their elections was doing the rounds on You Tube.  And as I read the post, I found myself thinking about how amazing it must be to be part of a country that you are so proud of – whether Democrat or Republican, you can always be proud to be an American. Sure, any and every country has their issues, and then to have another amazing country, Canada, encourage America like that.

I am ashamed to be South African.

I am ashamed of the white, elitist past we have.  But, I am even more ashamed of what is happening at the moment.  Instead of building this country up – the black youth are using every and any means to completely destroy this country.  We have been told, “you’re white, your white arrogance must get out this country”, while being blindfolded to their own arrogance and pride, and where are we to go?

Where are we, as white South Africans, to go?

If we had ancestral visas of any country, we would’ve gone a long time ago.  I need to ensure the future of the child God has blessed me with, and our future as well.  But, we have no ancestral visas and no way to get out of this country.

For the first time in my life, I would actually flee – and that both saddens me and shames me, but the violence and hatred towards whites is just simply too much to handle.

What the ANC and the black majority don’t understand is this: you can have this country.  You can rule it and own it and it can be yours, for the rest of eternity, BUT then it needs to function well as a country: there must be a zero tolerance towards crime; I should be able to send my daughter to any school and know that she will receive an excellent education; I shouldn’t NEED medical aid – any government hospital should suffice…  But, as it stands, there is no education in schools, the government is more corrupt and thieving than the country’s constituents and so cannot combat crime, and I wouldn’t be caught dead in any government hospital (no pun intended).  And the powers that be send thier kids to private school, go to private hospitals and fly overseas to do their shopping.  Have the country – I don’t care.  But run it well – FOR ALL PEOPLE OF SOUTH AFRICA.

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