21st December 2015:
I have not seen the movie, The War Room. But, I have read about it, and I do believe in the power of prayer.
- For God to protect and nurture and bless my marriage.
- To have financially prosperity.
- To be slim, fit, trim and healthy.
- To look after, and guide, Baby Girl through life – to parent her and love her where hubby and I will so often fail.
So, I am going to war. I am going to war for my health, for eating healthy, for eating without anxiety and fear, for focus to get fit and exercise.
Just a little while ago, there was no thought of doing any form of exercise – now I try run as often as I can. In fact, I would be fearful to walk the steps at work in case I lost weight – no I’m doing the Park Run as often as possible. I have come so far – but I am still eating emotionally. I still have so much fear around eating, or not eating, that my life pretty much still revolves around food – to the point of not being healthy.
I am going to war for my healthy eating habits – to focus not just on eating healthy, but also to eat in moderation, to eat when I am hungry, but also that when hubby says let’s go out to supper, there is no anxiety involved, no fear involved in eating or not eating.
This page will record what I am learning and God’s answer to my prayer.
23rd December 2015:
Last night I woke up feeling very anxious. I have no idea what the cause was – it may even have been the heat – but lying awake like that a little to reminiscent of that time when I was in the full throes of anxiety. I recalled to mind God’s Word, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7). My mind and my emotions belongs to God, and He is the God of peace, love, kindness, hope and faith. Eventually, I did fall asleep again (only to be woken by Baby Girl who was having bad dreams), but I am not going to allow fear to enter again. I am at war – at war for all the promises of God, which do NOT include fear.
24th December 2015:
Today – well, it started last night – I am feeling anxious about the up coming holidays. Two weeks at home, running about, and doing things and being out of my routine is making me a little nervous. However, I am at war for the peace of my mind and my soul – which are mine to claim through the promises of God. I know that I can trust God.